Do you know what a chameleon is? And a phasmid—better known as a stick-bug? Both are two living creatures capable of mimicking the environment around them so that their predator does not attack them.
We can also be stick-bugs, but in an unintelligent, unchristian way. I'm not talking about wearing clothes the color of the couch in your house, so your mom won't yell at you for being lazy. No. I'm talking about something much more important: your life of grace, your passport to Heaven.
We live in the world, but we are not of the world. This means that if you follow Christ, you must accept being an enigma for others, someone different. This "standing out" will often involve suffering because no one likes to be labeled or left alone. But remember that there is Someone who suffered for you unto death, even death on a cross.
You blend into the world when you accept certain music, environments, friendships, TV series, conversations, etc. You fill yourself with its way of thinking and progressively move away from God.
It is not enough to be nice, to go to Mass on Sundays, to pray at night, and so on, if later, at the moment of truth, you don’t show your faith.
It is a matter of living coherently, as Christ did. That’s why He said: "Every one who acknowledges me before men, I also will acknowledge before my Father who is in heaven" (Matthew 10:32).
The devil also uses mimicry to deceive us into thinking that we will be more fruitful in our apostolate if we dilute our faith and if we present it as a mix: GOD + WORLD, so that others will not be scandalized and may feel attracted. Do not be fooled by this idea. You are young, and you know better than anyone that radicalism attracts, engages, and gives foundation and certain bases to your life. It is impossible to live your ideas and your way of acting coherently if they are not based on the truth, which is God Himself.
If you have had that experience, why hide? Maybe you are the only Christian person that the people around you will see for the rest of their lives. Maybe you are the only one who can tell them things as they are, showing them that your only interest is the salvation of their souls.
All the saints suffered and suffer these little thorns that come from embracing the very wood of the Cross: "If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me" (Mark 8:34). It is the only place where you find Jesus. So, when you come before the Father with your hands full, He will be able to say to you: "Come to me, I have been waiting for you."