A Nursing Student's Experience during Covid-19

When Spain declared a state of alarm, and after all the consequent changes imposed on us, I had the feeling that I was living in an extremely strange situation. We all had a hard time adapting to these new circumstances; it felt like we were living in a movie. A priest from my parish encouraged us to ask the Lord what He wanted from us in these moments. If we are living this, it is because God wants to give us many graces through it. In fact, this could have happened fifty years ago or a hundred years from now, and we would not have lived through it, but God willed that it happen now; He has a plan for each of us. 

I asked the Lord to show me my path in the midst of this adventure and to grant me the grace to respond to this situation as a true young saint would. In fact, there are so many examples of young people who responded courageously to difficult situations imposed on them, uniting themselves even more to God and truly surrendering all to Him.

I am currently in my last year of nursing school. A few weeks after the state of alarm began; the University informed us that those of us who wanted to could help out in the hospitals on a voluntary basis as nurse support. I saw this as an opportunity the Lord was giving me to give myself to Him in my brothers and sisters.

I was assigned to the ICU. Being there as a nurse support, I wouldn't be in direct contact with patients, but rather help nurses with other tasks like preparing medication, organizing and delivering material, filling out charts, monitoring vital signs, etc.

The first few weeks were horrible. It was complete chaos: there was a lot of tension in the environment; the nurses were overwhelmed; we worked the entire shift under pressure; the patients died alone, without anyone who could warn the families, without anyone who could pray and watch over the dead, because there was no time.

During those days, it was a gift for me to be able to pray. I remember that I could only look at the Lord without saying anything to Him. I could only rest in Him. The Lord is a true friend and companion, He is faithful and knows how to embrace us when we need Him most, with or without words; His presence comforts our hearts.

It was in prayer that the Lord, little by little, guided me and showed me the way to live that situation, uniting me to His Heart. I was a little sad, because with all the work in the hospital and Holy Week coming up, I felt like I wasn’t being faithful to my relationship with God, placing my heart entirely in Him during that time.

The Lord showed me very clearly that I had to look to Mary every day and try to create an environment worthy of Our Mother in the hospital. What would she do? She would always smile, always with great peace, bringing everyone closer to the Heart of her Son; she would be simple, grateful... I have experienced many times how Mary brings me closer to the Lord and fills me with her virtues. Our Blessed Mother, in silence and without being the center of attention, can work great things in our souls. It was in this moment that she asked me to follow her example me more than ever. She wanted to be present in the hospital, and that is why I received the opportunity to go, to bring the presence of Our Blessed Mother and the Lord. I had to fill myself with them so that they could work in me.

So I started to work on the little details that Our Mother always takes care of: a smile, a simple “thank you”, saying “good morning” to all the people I ran into, and many, many prayers for all the people who are in the hospital. Little by little, I saw how Our Lady really began to reign in the ICU and filled me with peace. I felt her closeness and saw how she always accompanied and sustained me. Without her, it would not have been the same.

And precisely because of this, I lived a very special Holy Week, close to Mary. I realized that Mary’s fidelity at the foot of the Cross was only possible because of her constant fidelity in the quiet, day-to-day life in Nazareth.

During these days of confinement, you won't all be able to help at the hospital, but each one of you has been entrusted a mission from Our Blessed Mother, to conquer souls for her Son. The Lord gives us a beautiful opportunity to practice charity in the small things, in giving a little more in all that we do and so grow in holiness. By being faithful to the Lord in our homes, our “Nazareth”, by striving to gladden the lives of our family members, our “Saint Joseph” and “Jesus”, we will receive the grace of being faithful to the Lord always, even in moments of suffering, when the cross arrives. This is what Our Blessed Mother teaches us.

Pray for me and for all the health workers. May this situation help us turn our hearts to the Lord, doing everything for His glory and entrusting all our work to Him, trusting that everything He does is for the good of those who love Him, and that He has overcome; suffering and death do not have the last word. The risen and glorious Jesus has come to save us and fill us with the joy of His Resurrection.

 


Beatriz Fra

My name is Beatriz, I study nursing and I belong to the Home of the Mother Youth. A few years ago I took part in a mission trip to Ecuador where I realized the importance of Christ's real presence in my life. I had always been Catholic, but I was more centered on myself than on God. I realized that a life that doesn't give of itself starts to rot, and that living for myself alone, superficially, I was losing what God had given me until then. Seeing that the Lord had always been with me, that He loved me and suffered because of my lack of fidelity changed my life radically. It pushed me to want to go to Heaven by leaving my superficiality, struggling every day to be holy and to bring to others the great treasure I found. That is why I try to share the joy of the Faith with everyone, especially with young people, and one way of doing this is through this blog. Pray for me!